today, it started off rough. my mom wasn’t talking to me, my best friend got suspended, but everyone was telling me he was going to be expelled, and everyone was just pissing me off because i just didn’t care. i cared about the fact that he was gone, and she wasn’t talking to me. and that’s really it. i know it’s selfish, but it’s the truth. but then, a boy came over. and we just hung out and i kind of forgot everything. my mom was no longer mad, and everything was just good. and it felt so nice. “nice” i love that word. i love that feeling. it’s just the best. bah (:
guys, i just realized he’s graduating tomorrow. don’t get me wrong, i’m excited for him. like, that’s so great and all, but i’m scared. i am so freaking scared that once he’s in college he’s gonna forget me. we’re not gonna talk anymore. it’s just gonna be gone for good. the past four and a half years, just like that. like, what if i never see him again? and i’m missing his graduation? because i have prom. which i’m also super excited for. but, agh. i wish graduation was a different day. he says i’ll see him again, but what if i don’t? what if i’m never going to see him again once he leaves? i am going to miss him so much, i can’t even handle this. i’m freaking out. awesome
